i am at my parents' place up north, pretending. i worked approx. 12 hours today at a wedding and it was cool. learned some shit, and made some money. i am pretending, right now, that the past four years did not exist, this is because i have been drinking. if i acknowledge the past while, crying is imminent. pretending i don't want a mcdonald's fix, too.

the ability to sabotage my own relationships with people is astounding. a skill learned only so well with lots of practice. i am a pro.

in other news: chee'burgah!