arm's length hurts more than a hug.

"Life never ceases to amaze me." He told me this last night, and he's right. The past two weeks have been a whirlwind of thoughts, materials, and substances. Preparing for another wave.

This past weekend I moved into my new place- both Lisa and me moved. Spent my very first night there last night, and it was serene. Like a five year storm of frustration and laziness is now passing and the clouds are parting, it's getting warm... skin is tingling.

Life is good. Even when life is fleeting it is good, and what the past two weeks have taught me is that no matter what you expect you will be surprised. Taken. Eyes wide open see beyond what is meant and unexpected collisions are beautiful.

Though some may think it, we never really know why things happen. There is no why for us, only for machines. We are so much more than why. We are much more than purpose. We are much less than minute but effect more than we'd hoped when divided against ourselves...

The most surprising thing of all, is that I've had this feeling before. My life thus far has been incredibly meaningful. I've had so many soul questioning experiences that, somehow, I feel like I'm hogging. I've randomly met people who immediately felt closer than home. Perhaps it is cumulative chance... but I'd like to think there's something mystical about it all. Some lesson to be learned or some new perspective to be gained by opening up your soul to someone you barely know. Life, my life, is uncontrollably beautiful. Sunshowers and dark chocolate.

The past two weeks testify.