well it hit tonight. doing my official budget looks like i'll be a fucking hermit for most of the time. now i feel like an adult, i guess, all depressed over money (and the lack thereof). regretting some of my past decisions, i.e. wasting $10k at university.

pissed off and alone. a great night.

how can i possibly sleep? i know i will adjust, but right now i'd like to curl up in a ball and pretend i'm in a coma.

motherfuck.