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i feel emotionally bottled and it's fucking annoying as hell. it feels like everyone else gets to express what they want when they are in the mood, but as soon as i say how i am feeling it's tony fucking tight-lips. i hate it. i hate feeling this way and am feeling like i should drop everything, everyone, and just go hide somewhere, like last year when i had not a care in the world and felt no attachment to anyone. though, what the fuck, i am not attached, still, so really it's my own fault...

but that doesn't make it any more or less annoying.

i just feel like i need to scream something meaningful at the top of my lungs, for a change, instead of tuck it away in my purse and let it seep out in whispers.