i'm hungry.
every morning, at an hour too early for proper neural function, hoards of people rush off to do things they hate because they must. does anybody want to be up at 7:45AM hustling across dundas st. like those weirdos in the speed-walking races? probably not. even if you're a morning person, that means sitting around the house and being lazy for a few hours before productivity occurs.
from the day we are born we are slowly (then rather quickly) taught that life means doing a bunch of shit you don't want to do in exchange for a few moments of fleeting happiness. yay. and why are we taught this? because the majority of our parents were taught this- no other reason. it's much easier to continue teaching everyone "life skills with an undertone of complete and utter self-loathing" than to say fuck it, i'll make the extra effort and break the mould.
and i know this because up until this very second, the 6:30 wake-up call, the coffee, the shower, subways, empty faces, shifty eyes, 50% of them sleeping... up until now i am still in the group with the rest of everyone who hates most aspects of 'surviving'.
things we must do to survive should be things we hate... otherwise we'd all make the fucking changeover, wouldn't we? oh yes we would, precious.
in reality, if i let myself go, i'd probably just find every which way to be passive and let life swoosh on by with nary a nail lifted. and while i understand that accomplishing things is what brings those instances of sunshine, the brief moments of light and warmth, isn't that just another thing we're taught? is this really the formula for living, are these the secrets we should all know that come from The Wise Ones?
is this diatribe just an excuse for me to be lazy?
from the day we are born we are slowly (then rather quickly) taught that life means doing a bunch of shit you don't want to do in exchange for a few moments of fleeting happiness. yay. and why are we taught this? because the majority of our parents were taught this- no other reason. it's much easier to continue teaching everyone "life skills with an undertone of complete and utter self-loathing" than to say fuck it, i'll make the extra effort and break the mould.
and i know this because up until this very second, the 6:30 wake-up call, the coffee, the shower, subways, empty faces, shifty eyes, 50% of them sleeping... up until now i am still in the group with the rest of everyone who hates most aspects of 'surviving'.
things we must do to survive should be things we hate... otherwise we'd all make the fucking changeover, wouldn't we? oh yes we would, precious.
in reality, if i let myself go, i'd probably just find every which way to be passive and let life swoosh on by with nary a nail lifted. and while i understand that accomplishing things is what brings those instances of sunshine, the brief moments of light and warmth, isn't that just another thing we're taught? is this really the formula for living, are these the secrets we should all know that come from The Wise Ones?
is this diatribe just an excuse for me to be lazy?
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