marriage is so passé. because i said that i am probably going to end up getting married someday, but i just hate the idea of doing something because it seems like the next logical step. lisa said something about dating for a while and where's the ring? (as in, people would assume that of her and her boyfriend) last night and i've been thinking about it since. our generation is so passive, let things pass by, not giving any care, do what you gotta do to survive, "that's life", etc. but no, that's not life- that is life you choose to occur. i'm sorry, but fate is bullshit and your choices create the path ahead of you, not the other way around. you want to get married? cool. i don't see it having any purpose anymore, what with the common law... um... law... but to celebrate your love with family and friends, well, i suppose i can dig on that. i think my wedding will be "wear what you'd wear to the horseshoe" and that's it. a big party free of years of bullshit, money grubbing tradition, but all about just having a great time with your friends. of course, i'd need a boyfriend first, but who's counting? haha. meh. it's one of those things for me that if it happens, cool, if not, i'm sure i'll live and be happy and bla bla. this post isn't that good, i can sense it, but my fingers are on a roll...

decided to stay at my job for another while yet. w had a talk and, even though there's no significant raise, i know he's a genuine guy and that if he could he'd pay me $40k/year. he's doing his best and offered that i work 2 days per week from home doing the graphic stuff for the business. that was the seller- i am thrilled to be able to work on brochures and new item artwork without the interruptions of the telephone. as is evidenced by our 2008 catalog, a lot of minor errors slipped by because, i feel, i probably got a call from some annoying whiner whilst in the middle of that page, and while proofreading it, AND while proofreading it again. i'm anal about my work.

anyway, uh, yeah... this is good. will provide me more time to pursue my personal interests- i do have to travel to the suburbs, but in the end i get to think less (job i already know) and will be less tired at the end of the day. at least for now. i figure when i leave it'll be for my 'dream'... i.e. own photography/layout business.

in other news: i am sipping on some Glenlivet and listening to thunder outside- time for some guitar, methinks. i am playing a show on the 26th!

oh yeah: i'm playing a show on the 26th. ha. come out. will post the flyer in a bit.