sometimes it all just seems like one big cluster fuck, doesn't it? the most important thing to remember is everyone is full of shit, and nobody can tell you how to run your life because we're all hypocrites.

which brings me to this blog. i've been lazy about it, as of late, but i just haven't had any writing ideas, coupled with being pretty busy/distracted by ongoing projects. suffice to say this blog is just me. incoherent at times, poignant at others, boring to most people most days, i'm sure- but i don't give a shit. i like just having somewhere to write when the mood strikes, or somewhere with HTML posting capabilities when i want to share something.

so today i'm on a plain of no sleep. the no-sleep plain of existence where you don't really care about anything and your mood is flat, but a high platform. i feel good, just completely apathetic and unaffected by anything... today.

last night was the queen west benefit @ the reverb, one of a few that'll occur, i'm sure. there was a good turnout, so that was nice to see. as a sidenote, the biggest problem with the music non-scene in toronto: people who don't give a shit but 'keep up appearances'. is this high school? the bronx? do you have to maintain your street cred (holla) or something? over 500 people claimed to be attending the benefit last night and i assure you there weren't 500 people there last night. even with the in and out factor! it just amuses me, is all. i care, i really care, i really do... except i just got home from work and i'm hungry and tired and bla bla bla. at least your home isn't a pile debris that used to be your stuff.

anyway, dealing with 6AM and -10 today actually was a breeze due to the aforementioned plain of not caring™.

crash and burn coming in 5, 4, 3...