there are a lot of feelings inside of me i have never dealt with, and still don't seem to know how. a lot of anger that i don't know how to express, a lot of sadness i feel is never acceptable among my friends, and a bunch of other stuff people never want to talk about.

people are always only one step away from the door. i miss him, but i can't go there. this whole post was basically me avoiding saying that i miss him in my life.