tuesday is monday.

it's true. i work from home on mondays and wednesdays, so today is my monday- and it still sucks. snowy, cold, blowing... and that's just inside my head. right now, i feel as if i have nothing left to give. tomorrow will be different, it always is, but right now... i'm tired. i have no energy to put forth effort for anyone. not right now, no planning. no me calling you. no. and this isn't to anyone or about anything specific, it's just february and i've had it and soon it will be spring and i'll feel reborn, just like every year. in a way, it's a neat thing to experience rebirth ever year- mentally, physically, emotionally.

i'm just writing 'cause it's all in my head and if i don't let some out i start to feel anxious and can't sleep. want to eat pizza and deep fried pullus and gain 40lbs. wearing fat pants and a couch.

but here i am. work. money is a good motivating factor... gotta pay rent... right?

one and a half months until death valley.