2012 paid off as entertaining hollywood blockbuster schlock. score! though, i have to say, over two hours of constant destruction became somewhat boring... though it is worth it alone to see woody harrelson play the prophet.
in other news: it's monday and i here i sit working from home with bedhead and fat pants... paradiso dark in hand, chocolate bar already consumed (we're keeping it healthy) and thoughts of winding roads to come. life takes you to strange places, like buying a 2006 rioja and consuming it coupled with cheese sticks. need i say gut rot the next morning? i think it was nature's revenge for me acting so sacrilegious.
back on track. gots some plans for photography and some design ideas, too. adopted a new personal philosophy over the weekend - something to combat my procrastinatory nature. i would say this blog is a good distraction, but really it's a way to work through thoughts, just as my private journal. gotta dump out the stupidity.
dreams are good for that, too. i don't remember much of my dream last night, but i remember one part where p. and i went to swiss chalet but we weren't allowed to have chicken and ate only vegetables and baked potatoes. a nightmare!
limitless... life. a lifetime of breaking down walls in your brain, the ones someone else told you to build. live your life, fuck. i am now waking up, my path has led me here... wake up and live. so many of us live life as if we are certain we will have retirement or even old age. it is a hard thing to overcome the fears of uncertainty, but i am determined.
in other other news: i hope i win $1000 worth of shoes! i almost said $1000 worth of free shoes, but then... that's a paradox, no? how many free shoes can $1000 buy? none.
i am smrt.
the end.
bovine university.
"without a post secondary education you can't get a job that's much higher than working at mcdonald's," they have said. aside from having to learn a specific skill/trade- it is simply untrue, and i call bullshit.
first of all, the crap myth that people are unemployable if they have not spent $40k+ on schooling is, well... crap. come on people. you don't need a university education to work a reception job, and if that's what They™ tell you, then call them on it. so what, you passed a bunch of tests and memorized some facts long enough to pass those tests, and now what? you have a piece of paper that says you did the aforementioned and somehow you are suddenly ten times more employable than the others who haven't? it doesn't make sense because it is part of our fucked up system... that we perpetuate. there are thousands of university graduates every year who cannot find jobs, cannot sustain an independent life due to crushing debt, or are simply the same moron with a hat rack for a head that they were when they entered post secondary school four years ago. who is to say that i can't be "successful" (this is the term people equate with having 100 foot televisions and diamonds the size of babies) without that piece of paper?
the truth is, regardless of choosing to further your formal education or not, you still have to make up your mind to do it. it's all mental. the boundaries we have, the ideas that we need this or need that to survive in this world are mental walls. just another brick. it is a matter of discipline and determination and you can most certainly teach yourself (by reading books, etc.) how to do most of what the work force needs. i digress.
second, experience trumps book learnding, always has and always will. the reason why is that whereas formal education runs on a specific time line with specific requirements and goals, life outside is unpredictable. employers know this, your university professors know this, all adults know this (retrospectively), and i think a lot of kids know it deep down. sorry to say, but i am pretty sure that me having 8 years of experience doing what i do at the same company will win out over any newly graduated pudding cup.
i am not trying to say it is never necessary, but after a discussion with my friend last night who insists that her child go to university, and tried to tell me the reasons why, i am pretty annoyed by the subject. who are you to say that your child will even want to go? if he doesn't, what then- will you force him? bullshit.
i'm getting all worked up again, but really- the idea that you can't get anywhere without it starts in your head. i thought that for years when i was younger, until i threw myself into debt for two worthless years at university. i dropped out 'cause of some useless bureaucratic crap that would have had me fail a course (thus having to pay more to repeat it). fuck you. i dropped out that very day when i left the classroom. don't regret it. i refuse to jump through unnecessary hoops. fuck you, i'll do it on my own.
and i am. and so can anyone.
i just don't get it- to me, an artist who has lived a lifetime and never compromised their integrity for the sake of money is far superior to someone with a master's who was simply forced to get it by their parents... even if the artist lives in a tiny apartment and nobody knows their name.
people need to stand up and say no to this formula. if you need a university education to get a job then make it free or go fuck yourself, i'll do it alone.
some fucked up shit
yes, life and these seeming coincidences... they just get more complex, eh?
last week:
someone on my twitter mentioned sharon tate. so i googled to find out more about her murder and the manson family murders. came across crime scene photos. be careful what you google when you're too curious for your own good.
this weekend:
boyfriend has surgery, we sit around watching movies for a good portion of the weekend. he puts on a movie i've never seen, but was entertaining: Shampoo (1975). The movie stars Warren Beatty, Goldie Hawn, and some others. It's about a Hollywood hairstylist and his affairs (manwhore). Fine, good movie.
today:
i look up the movie on IMDB out of curiosity and start following links. sure enough, i find out that the movie was actually written about the real hairstylist Jay Sebring- hairstylist to the stars on the 50s/60s.
following a few more links i realize he was one of the people killed along with sharon tate in the manson family murders.
holy shit, right?
life is cool. the universe is feeding.
last week:
someone on my twitter mentioned sharon tate. so i googled to find out more about her murder and the manson family murders. came across crime scene photos. be careful what you google when you're too curious for your own good.
this weekend:
boyfriend has surgery, we sit around watching movies for a good portion of the weekend. he puts on a movie i've never seen, but was entertaining: Shampoo (1975). The movie stars Warren Beatty, Goldie Hawn, and some others. It's about a Hollywood hairstylist and his affairs (manwhore). Fine, good movie.
today:
i look up the movie on IMDB out of curiosity and start following links. sure enough, i find out that the movie was actually written about the real hairstylist Jay Sebring- hairstylist to the stars on the 50s/60s.
following a few more links i realize he was one of the people killed along with sharon tate in the manson family murders.
holy shit, right?
life is cool. the universe is feeding.
working on a logo thing right now, well i was, blackthorn in hand/on desk. cant work anymore, creative juices run low when you were up/hit snooze/were up/hit snooze at 6am/7am/7:20am. good day or bad day, who knows... are there any that qualify? it ended on a good note with a movie, some chat, some silliness, a bit of snackyness and a whole lotta... loveliness? i hate the word "lovely" or any of its derivatives. it's something my grandmother says in her rose tinted world, and something people say when they are trying not to see the world for what it is. but in all honesty, coming from an 87 year old woman it is pretty endearing, every time she says it i am reminded of a time i never knew.
anyone else is just full of shit. do you like the sweater i got you for xmas? it's lovely. did you get the painting i sent? LOVELY! yep, hate the word.
i met a man on a street corner, like ya do, and he asked me how often people tell me i am astounding. i said... um... lots? assuming he meant about my height, but then he called me beautiful and we walked for a bit in the same direction and he talked about my height, my brothers' height, and the potential height of potential mates. i don't want to be an ass because he was sweet and wanted me to check out his music... but... really? let's talk about my height! let us talk about the subject i've never even considered nor has the world at large considered, ever in the history of the world at large has my height been considered. what does "world at large" even mean? don't you love when people say they won't or don't want to do something, then do it? makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. enough ass-being, i was in a shitty mood and it actually made me feel a bit better. plus the endorphin rush after performing ellipses-based exercises.
shitty mood. why, you may ask? no reason. anything and everything, a day when the brain won't shut off and from 6am/7am/7:20am your mind is spiraling inward and outward and over and over.
so i got to the boyfriend's place and he bought me a stocking and hung it by the fake chimney with care... swoon. enjoying the honeymoon. we're in a sweet time right now and i'm not stupid enough to miss out on it. fantastic to be in love.
a strange thing: the weekend before his stroke he said to me: "are we going to make it?" of course i thought nothing of it at the time.
my cousin and i went for martinis last weekend and discussed the concept of forever. i said that the idea of forever is moot because, since it is equivalent to an infinite amount of time... that time could either be one millisecond or one million years. to which he raised an interesting point: the idea of forever is seen to not only embody the time in which we find ourselves (earth and space), but also encompasses the unknown... which also may be finite, but is not measurable. who knows how many petri dishes there are in the lab.
been feeling a renewed sense of connectivity with the world as of late... every time i've been really pissy something or several things have come my way to say, hey, wake the fuck up. and i have. and i am thankful.
i just opened my $0.89 bag of prawn crackers and it smelled like... well, you know....
Recipe time
Delicious meal-type salad I invented and have been eating consistently for a few months now:
SALAD:
1 avocado, ripe
1/2 Cucumber, chopped into cube-like pieces
Green onion, coarsely chopped
Ginger, thinly sliced
Fresh Cilantro, chopped
Garlic chicken breast or tofu, cooked and cubed (optional)
DRESSING:
(I don't measure, just make it to taste if you know how to make vinaigrettes, if not I can't help you)
Olive oil
Fish sauce
Hoisin Sauce
White Vinegar
1 clove of garlic, chopped
Let the dressing sit for a few minutes so the garlic flavour mixes with the rest.
Put hot chicken/tofu on top of salad, add dressing, mix. Garnish with cilantro.
YUM!
SALAD:
1 avocado, ripe
1/2 Cucumber, chopped into cube-like pieces
Green onion, coarsely chopped
Ginger, thinly sliced
Fresh Cilantro, chopped
Garlic chicken breast or tofu, cooked and cubed (optional)
DRESSING:
(I don't measure, just make it to taste if you know how to make vinaigrettes, if not I can't help you)
Olive oil
Fish sauce
Hoisin Sauce
White Vinegar
1 clove of garlic, chopped
Let the dressing sit for a few minutes so the garlic flavour mixes with the rest.
Put hot chicken/tofu on top of salad, add dressing, mix. Garnish with cilantro.
YUM!
it's finally happened...
... someone posted on a facebook invite with the excuse "i'd love to go, but i have swine flu!".
is she joking? i don't know but i'd like to think so since i find it maybe a little too hilarious.
in other news: i'm starting to get really sick of this "brave new world" bullshit advertising... some signs i've seen as of late include:
"You're just the brand we're looking for."
"The Power and Money Show"
"Buy! Buy! Buy! Buy!"
Really? You sure you don't wanna add another "Buy!" in there just to be sure you get the point across?
Progress is lovely...
is she joking? i don't know but i'd like to think so since i find it maybe a little too hilarious.
in other news: i'm starting to get really sick of this "brave new world" bullshit advertising... some signs i've seen as of late include:
"You're just the brand we're looking for."
"The Power and Money Show"
"Buy! Buy! Buy! Buy!"
Really? You sure you don't wanna add another "Buy!" in there just to be sure you get the point across?
Progress is lovely...
Be Afraid, Be Verrrry Afraid.
For starters, your basic information grab from mostly reliable sources indicate that Health Canada approved the vaccine based solely on small clinical trials run by GlaxoSmithKline, the company who produced the vaccine. Not exactly your lengthy, unbiased evaluation of something you plan to inject into millions of people (source) and that trials are still ongoing to test the safety of the vaccine.
But that's not what I really want to talk about, I want to address the "pro-vaccine" people's assumption that our paranoia is unfounded. One article even states that it is dangerous when people are so unwilling to trust their government- no shit, Sherlock. If you think back, though, when was there a time when you could ever trust your government to truly work for the betterment of the people? Honestly, I can't recall such a time. I wasn't around for Trudeau or FDR, and Obama means well, but I have yet to believe that the self-serving powers that be will allow him to make any real changes to the fundamentals of the capitalist system. This is a highly protected system that serves the pockets of the wealthy who make billions of dollars off of our heads.
Just check out these links and see for yourself:
Inventing Diseases for Profit - once a patent runs out on a drug, it is fair game for any company to reproduce. For example, Motrin was the original, but now you can buy knock-off Ibuprofen pills anywhere. While drugs are still under patent, they are highly profitable so it is in a pharmaceutical company's best interest to maintain patented drugs and you can't have need for those without sickness. But it does make you wonder why anyone would patent a drug if the primary concern was the health and safety of people:
History of the Business with Disease - profit trumps humanity.
Tuskegee - lest we forget.
I digress...
It is our own governments who promote mass paranoia as a way to achieve votes and remain in power. They want us to be afraid of what "the other guy" might do, often inciting the slippery slope argument to win support. The conspiracy theorists do it, too, but it remains that if both sides are pointing the finger, it ends up creating a general air of distrust. We've all seen the election-time smear campaigns that stop just short of painting horns on the opposition's forehead. Truth is, they're all prodding us in the arse with a pitchfork. We are often mentally pitchfork-prodded into supporting movements that are actually against our well being. Look at the most recent ridiculousness surrounding the health care debate in the USA- republicans funding a demonstration that compares universal health care to concentration camps. (source)
Again, all an attempt to fulfill their own agenda and make us think it was our own idea to begin with- it's like a bad marriage. But in the end, when paranoia has won over the hearts of the many for good or for ill, we are then the ones to blame. They™ point the finger back at us and make us feel bad for the decisions most of us didn't even know we were making to begin with. And yes, it is our choices that have gotten us where we are, but is it our fault that we're here? I don't think so.
Consider the marketing industry. A whole sector devoted solely to the manipulation of the mind. Millions of dollars are poured into psychological evaluations via market research groups, online surveys, even your Shoppers Drug Mart Optimum card and Air Miles card are a great way for them to get inside your brain: where you live, where you shop, what you prefer, etc. And though, for example, we make the purchase itself, it doesn't mean we make the best choice because often that choice is misinformed. Think less, bask in luxury, don't worry about the fine print, it's too much work anyway, you can't predict the future, so why bother? All subliminal, all powerful. Welcome to your Brave New World.
This is a big problem. Politicians and the like use the same psychology to start wars, to take away freedoms, and to stuff their pockets (and pig faces). They blame each other to get us on board (woohoo! good guy vs. bad guy - we all love a good competition and you have to pick a side for it to be interesting), then they blame the people to get us off their back once we realize we are suffering more than before. It's a good racket, very clever. Quite simply, we weren't robbed of our power, we have given it over willingly. They aren't entirely wrong to point the finger either because it is true. Thus, we doubt ourselves for having chosen our own ill fate. Very clever indeed.
So, when all is said and done, who do you trust when you are subconsciously taught to think that you can't even trust yourself?
Nobody.
... and when you think about it, it's not even that anyone is "pro-vaccine" or "anti-vaccine" or whatever you are for or against this week, we are just highly skeptical of everyone and everything.
And why shouldn't we be?
old lady aimoo
it's friday and i am excited to spend the night hanging with myself. tub + brave new world re-read + possibly an lcbo run in a bit = bliss.
what a week, day off earned. more later if i feel inspired to share, but i'm at a share maximum right now in my daily life, so i'm keepin' to myself quite a bit.
was that even english?
etc and so forth
so it's thursday, first week back on the two-days-from-home / three-days-in-the-office routine. love it. missed it. sipping some orange pekoe which i have been preferring over coffee as of late, dunno, i love the process, ya know? the sipping of something warm, the holding the mug, the warm and fuzzy insides. the sitting at my desk invoicing... what?
did you know that some people eat patties inside of coco bread? strange. seems so redundant, but then the west indies ingests bags of flour for breakfast, lunch and dinner. it's crazy, you think it's hard to find a decent meal in the USA, try finding one in trinidad. vegetables? fruit? yes those things grow here but we like to eat flour instead.
anyway, not complaining. i get to go for a week in march for my granny's 90th birthday party. hopefully check out some turquoise beaches. not hopefully, WILL. i will not accept no for an answer... especially since i'll be coming from the depths of february winter depression. beach! now!
in other news, ever have stupid little things that should not annoy anybody, annoy you regularly? as if they are rules of engagement... like how people always have to walk further than you on the subway platform. they just have to go a bit further, just a bit. it's a trend, i am not crazy, people i am convinced consciously think they will go further down the platform... is it an attempt to benefit the greater good by spreading out as much and as evenly as possible? is it an attempt at some sort of solitude that would only ever be considered solitude in the city? is it competitive?
and then there's the door-blockers. get on, stop and stand in doorway. after all, i am the last person on earth.
but i have a right to be mad about that. selfish, selfish, selfish are the people in the city, but it's not all their fault. all our fault. i dunno, it becomes a condition of living here- kill or be killed, shove or miss out, step aside or plow through 'cause you're tired of always being the one who is courteous. i do try to maintain that it doesn't matter what people do, i will act in a way i deem appropriate... but PMS occurs, and so do no sleep work days. on those days, i keel joo.
uh yeah... well. tea's getting cold. see ya later...
did you know that some people eat patties inside of coco bread? strange. seems so redundant, but then the west indies ingests bags of flour for breakfast, lunch and dinner. it's crazy, you think it's hard to find a decent meal in the USA, try finding one in trinidad. vegetables? fruit? yes those things grow here but we like to eat flour instead.
anyway, not complaining. i get to go for a week in march for my granny's 90th birthday party. hopefully check out some turquoise beaches. not hopefully, WILL. i will not accept no for an answer... especially since i'll be coming from the depths of february winter depression. beach! now!
in other news, ever have stupid little things that should not annoy anybody, annoy you regularly? as if they are rules of engagement... like how people always have to walk further than you on the subway platform. they just have to go a bit further, just a bit. it's a trend, i am not crazy, people i am convinced consciously think they will go further down the platform... is it an attempt to benefit the greater good by spreading out as much and as evenly as possible? is it an attempt at some sort of solitude that would only ever be considered solitude in the city? is it competitive?
and then there's the door-blockers. get on, stop and stand in doorway. after all, i am the last person on earth.
but i have a right to be mad about that. selfish, selfish, selfish are the people in the city, but it's not all their fault. all our fault. i dunno, it becomes a condition of living here- kill or be killed, shove or miss out, step aside or plow through 'cause you're tired of always being the one who is courteous. i do try to maintain that it doesn't matter what people do, i will act in a way i deem appropriate... but PMS occurs, and so do no sleep work days. on those days, i keel joo.
uh yeah... well. tea's getting cold. see ya later...
Codex Alimentarius.
Interesting. While a lot of articles I find on the topic seem to be very under-cited and paranoid, it is perhaps something to be paranoid about. I did go to the official site and read sections of the Codex over the past few weeks. What struck me as the largest issue is that there is no focus on educating people about their food choices and creating a mental link in individuals between proper consumption and health. This sort of ruling only serves to further remove the power of the people over what they choose. You choose sanitary, properly prepared KFC you're still choosing intestinal rot over health.
It seems to be presented under the guise of wanting to help people have access to "good quality" food on a global scale... but what constitutes good or quality? Are genetically modified foods riddled with pesticides considered good because they are mass produced, contain all vitamins and minerals that they should, and are readily available at a low cost? What is good and who decides on the standards of quality? Exactly.
Not to mention that if you've ever read anything about the meat packing industry alone, you'd know that rules and laws only apply to those who get caught (or who knowingly infect thousands with e-coli... and still continue to sell products, legally), and even then, only those without money enough for a good lawyer. Of course, there is no shortage of lawyers where the money trough doth dwell, so that is a moot point.
In the end, after reading many different articles, the Codex itself, and non-footnoted essays by crazy people, I have come to the conclusion that it isn't a good thing. In Germany, the price of dietary supplements is through the roof since they have adopted the Codex, which still does not prevent one from buying and taking toxic doses of vitamins which one has not researched.
So what's the point? More control, I think. Control of the food supply, slowly but surely. Control the food, control the people. Monsanto sure has that one down pat. I mean, it seems like a good idea, it says so in the preamble... so it must be, right?
Read for yourself...
Codex Alimentarius
http://www.codexalimentarius.net
WWII Studies by IG Farben headed by Fritz ter Meer (who, golly gee, also masterminded the Codex Alimentarius) were only the beginning...
http://www4.dr-rath-foundation.org/PHARMACEUTICAL_BUSINESS/history_of_the_pharmaceutical_industry.htm
Stop Codex
http://www.stopcodex.org
The World According to Monsanto
http://www.youtube.com/user/Monsanto720p#grid/user/B8DC51B28C789BB2
It seems to be presented under the guise of wanting to help people have access to "good quality" food on a global scale... but what constitutes good or quality? Are genetically modified foods riddled with pesticides considered good because they are mass produced, contain all vitamins and minerals that they should, and are readily available at a low cost? What is good and who decides on the standards of quality? Exactly.
Not to mention that if you've ever read anything about the meat packing industry alone, you'd know that rules and laws only apply to those who get caught (or who knowingly infect thousands with e-coli... and still continue to sell products, legally), and even then, only those without money enough for a good lawyer. Of course, there is no shortage of lawyers where the money trough doth dwell, so that is a moot point.
In the end, after reading many different articles, the Codex itself, and non-footnoted essays by crazy people, I have come to the conclusion that it isn't a good thing. In Germany, the price of dietary supplements is through the roof since they have adopted the Codex, which still does not prevent one from buying and taking toxic doses of vitamins which one has not researched.
So what's the point? More control, I think. Control of the food supply, slowly but surely. Control the food, control the people. Monsanto sure has that one down pat. I mean, it seems like a good idea, it says so in the preamble... so it must be, right?
Read for yourself...
Codex Alimentarius
http://www.codexalimentarius.net
WWII Studies by IG Farben headed by Fritz ter Meer (who, golly gee, also masterminded the Codex Alimentarius) were only the beginning...
http://www4.dr-rath-foundation.org/PHARMACEUTICAL_BUSINESS/history_of_the_pharmaceutical_industry.htm
Stop Codex
http://www.stopcodex.org
The World According to Monsanto
http://www.youtube.com/user/Monsanto720p#grid/user/B8DC51B28C789BB2
it's pretty funny how girls at the gym look at you like you're showing off because you're, i dunno, lifting weights and confident about the silly poses you get into to accomplish your workout. how dare i!
heh.
this also seems to carry over into every day life where, by measure of the eyes, other people are appalled at my mere existence. how dare i completely crush their perceptions about girls by simply standing there with bedhead and morning breath (hello longos across the street). yes, i'm tall. yes, i'm happy about it. yes, you are never going to be this tall, midget. how dare i!
and i gotta admit, as much as i would like to say that i wish it wasn't so, i love it... it provides me with constant entertainment. hilarious. glance over--expression of astonishment when realizing i don't have a penis and look feminine--glance at feet to check for heels. i can;t count how many times i;ve seen this process and it's STILL FUNNY.
exeunt.
heh.
this also seems to carry over into every day life where, by measure of the eyes, other people are appalled at my mere existence. how dare i completely crush their perceptions about girls by simply standing there with bedhead and morning breath (hello longos across the street). yes, i'm tall. yes, i'm happy about it. yes, you are never going to be this tall, midget. how dare i!
and i gotta admit, as much as i would like to say that i wish it wasn't so, i love it... it provides me with constant entertainment. hilarious. glance over--expression of astonishment when realizing i don't have a penis and look feminine--glance at feet to check for heels. i can;t count how many times i;ve seen this process and it's STILL FUNNY.
exeunt.
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